SNOW BALL FIGHT!! Trevor throws snowballs at the window where Caden is waiting for him.Caden is being cuddly today! This is very rare. Besides one time last month he was only cuddly if his fever was over 103! He climbed in to my lap and laid down on me. It's so nice for him to finally show affection! He wants me to rub his head...he'll even pretend he hurt his head so I'll rub it.
Another sweet thing he did today was when I made his "baba" and was carrying him like a baby to the crib to lay him down he kept touching my nose until I said "nose" then he would keep touching my lips until I said lips. He had that eyes-half-closed content look on his face. I tried to prolong this trek to his bedroom but he started to squirm so I had to lay him down. I named this blog "adventures w/ Caden" but all I can talk about is how sweet he is. I guess if you know him then you know that for him to be calm is so special that it's worth writing about!
Today is Trevor and my anniversary! Three years. Trevor's big idea of celebrating is to get Chinese take out, make brownies and play a game. I can't think of anything better! Maybe tomorrow we'll go out.
Another sweet thing he did today was when I made his "baba" and was carrying him like a baby to the crib to lay him down he kept touching my nose until I said "nose" then he would keep touching my lips until I said lips. He had that eyes-half-closed content look on his face. I tried to prolong this trek to his bedroom but he started to squirm so I had to lay him down. I named this blog "adventures w/ Caden" but all I can talk about is how sweet he is. I guess if you know him then you know that for him to be calm is so special that it's worth writing about!
Today is Trevor and my anniversary! Three years. Trevor's big idea of celebrating is to get Chinese take out, make brownies and play a game. I can't think of anything better! Maybe tomorrow we'll go out.
LATER 2:25pm
I tried to find a picture for my profile and I realized something. The pictures of me that are not a) pre-Caden b) pregnant or c) holding a new baby are few and far between. I am behind the camera now. I'm the voice on the home video that says "look here baby, look at mommy!" There are plenty of pictures of Trevor & Caden, because I take them. There probably won't be any pictures of me until I'm a Grandma...that will be with my grandchild taken by his mother who there will not be any pictures of for a while.
Maybe it's a good thing that there are no pictures of me because I looked at Caden today and had a brief pang of jealousy because his clothes are so much cuter than mine. I don't have any cute new clothes. I did put together a outfit that made me feel pretty good yesterday...a red long sleeve top layered under a baby doll shirt w/ a long denim skirt...with in a 1/2 hour Caden's diaper leaked on it and I put a frumpy sweater. Ick!
Becoming a mommy is to lose your identity for a while...is it worth it? With out a doubt. I mean w/o Caden I could have a boxful pictures of me taken by Trevor. It would be just us. But those pictures wouldn't be as much fun. They would not capture joy of watching a child grow and learn something new. This is what I mean...I have a pictures of Caden rolling over for the first time. They are adorable and I love to look at them. If it was anyone but my baby (or a baby) who cares? Who would want to see me roll over? Having Caden makes pictures way more fun. And as for clothes...with out my little puppy I would pass the children's department wishing I had an excuse to buy those little pants and sweater vest. I'm extremely lucky to have such a sweet, fun, funny & active son to bring such joy in to my life. Just as long as I get "me time" once in a while who cares what I'm wearing and if any one records it.
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